Single Again… This

By Kenneth Stepp

This… Just 4 letters that form a word we all use daily. Today I will try to express how much more this means to me. 

I recently heard a song. Darius Rucker’s, This. It made me think that I should write about my “this”. My this is my life right now. My this is a collection of events that happened in my life and those happenings led me to this. This being my present life. A few words from the song are below. 

Maybe it didn’t turn out like I planned

Maybe that’s why I’m such, such a lucky man

For every stoplight I didn’t make

Every chance I did or I didn’t take

All the nights I went too far

All the girls that broke my heart

All the doors that I had to close

All the things I knew but I didn’t know

Thank God for all I missed

‘Cause it led me here to this

Wow, what a way to look at all the things we went through in the past. It woke me up. I began going back in time. The breakups, the moving too often, the disappointments, and all the heartaches and pain. It all led me here, to this… My this. And my this is pretty amazing. 

This is where I usually ask. Is it that simple? The answer is always no. Well, till now. You see, I’m standing in a simple place because of everything I went through in my past. A simple way to say that we are a culmination of our past events. I can remember thinking that if I couldn’t have her, I would die. Of course I couldn’t have her and and I didn’t die. Now, my this is amazing. Perhaps that failure helped lead me to this. Of course it did…

Today I am living a thankful life. I feel like I woke up from a dream and I’m in the best place on Earth. Or maybe this is a dream I never want to wake up from. Either way, I am so thankful for this. This… Simple word, simple path, but complex dynamics. I went through THAT to find THIS. 

So, what is your this like? If your this is not fulfilling or is hurtful, know that you’re in a that not a this.And what you are experiencing right now will be pavement on the highway to get you to your this. Trust me when I tell you, it will be worth it in the end. 



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