I wrote this back when I thought I’d found my forever love. We didn’t make it but we remain best friends today. Reading it again made me want to share. I hope you enjoy it as much as it as much as I did.
By Kenneth Stepp
Love… Never a more wonderful word has been spoken. Not long ago, I “released” myself to love again. There are days when I can’t stop talking about it, and moments when I am speechless. But there are never times when I’m not thinking about it. We live 100 miles apart. The drive is long, but the payoff is worth more than the two hours it takes me to get there. My drive time is me time, my arrive time is we time. It just works for me. I call her place, “The Farm”. Four dogs, two cats, seven horses, two ducks, and some chickens. Add two amazing women, her and her daughter. It’s Heaven for me, really. Before allowing myself to love again, I spent my life simply existing. Now, well, now I thrive. Every day I feel I am closer to being in my forever relationship, every day our hearts are that much closer to becoming one. Again. Love really is amazing…
“The view from love allows me to be free. Free from my thoughts, fears, and insecurities” – Kenneth Stepp
Amazing love, how can it be? Those were the words to a song we sang in church years ago. I loved that song, it spoke to me. Now, those words bring yet another meaning to my mind. They still speak to me, they still touch me, but in a different way. I am in a place I’ve never been, because every day is new. I have never loved so completely, so deeply, and so all encompassing. It’s as if my entire soul has been renewed. Maybe the journey damaged me more than I thought, perhaps I saw too much, was hurt too many times, or experienced too many people who were so damaged, that they came to enjoy damaging others. Those determined to make everyone pay for their pain. The road to love has been bumpy at best. I use to laughingly write about how we should be careful on this dance floor because it’s full of landmines. Whatever the journey did to me. Love is healing me from it. Amazing love indeed…
“Surrendering to great love isn’t the end of your journey. It’s the beginning of your new life. A new amazing” – Kenneth Stepp
So how are all these new experiences new? I’ve loved before, I’ve been in relationships before,I’ve enjoyed deep thoughts, animals, farms, and long drives before, I’ve been close to someone before, felt a kinship, and gave my heart before. These things are not new to me. God in His ultimate wisdom, made us all different. Like snowflakes, all of us are unique from one another. There will never be another her, and never be another me. So when our hearts found one another, something very new happened. A unique bonding of two unique hearts. A relationship as unique as all the snowflakes on the planet. A once in a lifetime merging of two individual humans. Wrapping my mind around this miracle still leaves me baffled. And don’t be fooled, this love is a miracle. This really is, amazing love.
“Whether you are searching for love, or love is searching for you. You will find love, or love will find you” – Kenneth Stepp
So in this journey to find your forever love, know that your forever is on a journey too. And should you ever find yourself doubting this. Remember my story. Remember my journey. But most of all, remember two words that explain everything about our search for real unconditional, forever love. “Amazing Love”… It is and it exists. Surrender when it comes. It is so worth the risk…
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