By Kenneth Stepp
Really? If I use this title, do I owe Huey Lewis & The News a royalty check? Let’s hope not. Have you ever wondered where it all leads? I guess I should explain what “it” is first. It is simply the journey to find happiness. Let’s admit it, we are all on it, we all accepted this path we are on. If not outright, then by our actions.
I’ll confess that I have not been very successful on this quest for happiness. I still have far too many “dark nights of the soul” to claim any forward motion in it. Of course I’m back on the saddle pretty much every day. I’m on a racehorse some days, and some days it’s a child’s stick pony. I never know from day to day which one. Either way, my cowboy hat will wave in the air and I’ll be yelling YEEHAW!
It’s morning, I’m up before the sun. And, I am hopeful. What will today bring? A few days ago when I crowded my calendar full for today, it looked awesome. Now, with the weight of the day on my shoulders. Uncertainty settles in. Unsure of anything. I am trying to at least finish some of my work online before hopping on my horse, the massive one or the stick thingy in the corner of the room. That way something productive happened no matter what.
I believe my life to be more typical than not. Being single at this age is something I never planned on. Having spent 24 years with the same girl, I never guessed I would be alone today. But, here I am, not simply looking for love, but also trying to define it. I want to know everything there is to know about love. Real, unconditional, unlimited love.
What I have found is amazing. Love endures. Love sees no flaws. Love forgives AND forgets. If two people can unconditionally love one another they only see perfection. Thus, both are with the man or woman of their dreams. That my friends is real power. The power to heal lives, hurts, pains, damage, and most of all, brokenness.
Power From Nowhere
Power is the only word that comes close to describing what I see here. It’s as if two people that have this at the same time have a superpower. For one thing, they are both with their soulmate. I actually believe in the whole soulmate phenomenon. I believe it is when both have this real unconditional love between them, sadly, I’m convinced that almost no one ever finds this. While all believe they have the capacity to love unconditionally. Few actually can, even fewer still ever find each other, and if they do. They may not be at the same place at the same time. I have been there, it’s brutal, pain like I have never felt. You see, that power that real love has, it has the potential to cut both ways. It can hurt as much as it heals.
It is safer to develop a hard exterior and play it safe. At our age, the available hearts are few. But the bodies are plentiful. Digging in deep to discover which one you are looking at is dangerous, potentially devastating too. Perhaps I haven’t been single long enough to give up, develop the hard shell, or fake who I am yet. I’d like to believe I am above all that. But, no one is. Guard your heart, while exposing your heart. Yep. It will take an Divine power to pull that off. The good news is, we have one…
“The coward says in his heart “There is no love.” Because, standing in the shadows of the big, grand, and powerful existence of love, his small spirit is left feeling even smaller and less significant. And so he chooses to deny the existence of love altogether. Because he is too small to have it.”
― C. JoyBell C.